Archive for July 16th, 2013

Almost immediately after I posted my plan for a fast from buying stuff we don’t need, I realized my error in leaving a critical item off my list of 7 acceptable purchases: coffee.  I don’t know what in the name of Juan Valdez I was thinking!  I immediately rushed to the pantry and counted 5 bags of coffee I’d recently bought on sale (with coupons, too!), and assured my husband when he walked through the door after work that we should have enough coffee to make it through the summer.  His response:

“I don’t care what you can’t buy at the grocery store.  I’ll pick it up on my way home from work, if I have to.”

Loophole?  Maybe, but I’m okay with that.  I decided I would try to stick with the purpose of this fast, though, by limiting myself to just my morning cup of coffee, to see if I can make it for 7 weeks without buying more.  So of course, I ended up only getting 6 hours of sleep last night, and am already craving a caffeine IV.  (Tea is NOT going to cut it today, people.)  I decided that if I’m desperate enough for a second cup of coffee, I’ll just have to use the dollar store stuff I bought in a moment of extreme frugality/insanity, as punishment for my stupidity.  This stuff is so gross it makes church coffee seem like Starbucks.  I won’t even put it in my good stainless steel mug.

But you know what? Sometimes a little dollar store coffee is just what I need to put me in my place.  I need to be reminded that contrary to the marketing message I’ve been spoon fed as “part of a nutritious breakfast,” I do NOT deserve to have the best.  I am fortunate to live in a country where good, affordable food happens to be available 24/7.  Even being on a gluten free diet, choices abound.  Perhaps a little bitter coffee can help me remember that there are a whole lot of people in this world who drink bitter water and face bitter circumstances every day.  As promised, I paused before breakfast to pray for Miriam, the little girl from Uganda we’re sponsoring  through Compassion International.  I prayed that God would fill her heart and her belly.  Perhaps that’s an appropriate prayer for myself, too.

Lord, fill me with you.  You are the Bread of Life and Living Water that sustains me.  Empty me of bitterness, and pour out your Spirit so that I may be filled to overflowing and nourish those around me with your love.

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