It was the middle of October, and my son’s intestinal issues had gone from bad to worse. Past doctors visits had yielded no helpful information, and my attempt to put him on a gut-healing diet earlier in the year had caused my extremely underweight teenager to start losing weight. So I sought council from a nutritional expert friend of mine on inflammation, in the hope that it would give me some direction on how to help my son. She told me what I already knew from countless hours of research: that toxins and certain foods cause inflammation, and inflammation is the root of almost all our diseases. I had read all about inflammation, but the more I researched, the longer the list of dangerous foods to avoid became, leaving me feeling even more overwhelmed and discouraged.
But then she said something surprising. She said that if we are believers in Christ, the Holy Spirit dwells in every cell of our bodies, and only he knows what is wrong and how to fix it. We need the discernment of the Holy Spirit in all areas of our life, including our health. When we face physical difficulties, we need to seek God’s direction first (before Web MD) because God is our healer, whether he chooses to heal us through medicine, diet, or some other means.
This should not have come as a shock to me, since I have often experienced the leading of the Holy Spirit in other areas of my life, but I had been blinded to the fact that I had been turning to diet and the internet for healing instead of God. As the day wore on, I felt the familiar tug of the Holy Spirit on my heart, and God challenged me to believe that he wanted to heal me of my own intestinal issues. For three years I had struggled with bloating and cramping, and had identified corn, beans, yeast, onions, soy, and wheat as problems for me. Last spring, I attempted an incredibly strict “gut healing” diet to rid me of these issues – the same one that was a disaster for my son – but it only led to a small intestinal bacterial overgrowth that increased the number of foods I had to limit! I had done all the research, followed the wisdom of the “experts,” and only found myself pulled further into bondage to food.
That day, following my conversation with my friend, I realized that I had embraced the knowledge that God can set me free from bondage to fear, but it had never occurred to me that my physical bondage to food sensitivities and fear of food were areas of my life that needed to come under the authority of Christ. God said to me, “I want to heal you and set you free from your captivity to food so that you will know that I alone am God and have the power to heal. Food is not to be feared for I am the Creator of all things, and if I say it’s good, it’s good. Food is neither your healer; I am.”
Later, God confirmed this direction with 1 Timothy 4:3-5, in which the Apostle Paul is instructing Timothy to have nothing to do with teachings that call for abstaining “from certain foods, which God created to be received with thanksgiving by those who believe and know the truth.”
For everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving, because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer.
Essentially, God challenged me to stop believing that it is what I eat – or don’t eat – that gives me health. It is the manner in which I eat that matters. Am I choosing or excluding foods based on fear because of something I read, or am I accepting everything God has provided for me with an attitude of thanksgiving, believing that if I have prayed and asked God to bless it, he will make it safe for me? Who is my God, the Creator or his creation? I had embraced the philosophy that “food has power” because it seemed right in my eyes, but I then became a slave to fear and a whole host of rules because when we ascribe power to anything other than God, we end up bowing down to it and becoming its slave. I’m not saying we should all throw out sound nutritional advice or ignore food allergies, but rather that we need the Holy Spirit’s discernment in order to know which of the many competing – and often contradictory – voices we hear in medicine and on the internet are right for us! I can’t tell you what’s right for you, but God can.
So I told God that I believe that he is my healer, and that night I ate pulled pork on a wheat bun, salad with soy sauce and onions, and delicious chocolate cake! In the months that followed, each time I ate something that used to hurt me or that was on the “bad foods” list, I gave thanks to God for his healing, and asked him to bless it to my body. At first, I continued to experience some bloating, but each time I did, I said – often aloud – “Thank you Lord for healing me and blessing this food to my body.” And the symptoms would disappear. Last month my family went out for Mexican food for the first time in 3 years because, praise God, I am fully healed!
However, knowing that God is my healer, I still struggled over what to do for my son. By the last week before Christmas break he was discouraged by his physical discomfort and desperate for help. Having not heard a word from the Lord after months of prayer, I reluctantly turned back to the gut-healing diet, hoping that would help. But who wants to give up treats at Christmastime? Clearly, if I followed the wisdom I “knew,” which was to stop feeding him processed food so his intestines would heal, it would further discourage his spirit at a time when we should be celebrating. After 1 week of misery on the diet that resulted in symptoms that only grew worse, God finally spoke.
Celebrate. That was God’s direction for me, and his word over my son’s healing. God revealed that he was going to heal my son not through abstinence from certain foods, but through feasting on them! My instructions from the Lord were to do and cook whatever would bless my family and create an atmosphere of celebration. For my family, that means certain recipes that are a part of our holiday traditions. My son would not accept bacon-wrapped dates; it had to be bacon-wrapped Little Smokies! Just as God commanded the Isrealites to observe days of feasting, rest, and celebration of God’s goodness, God said to me, “Celebrate, rest, and watch for my deliverance.”
Sometimes God heals us through obedience to natural laws and following logical medical advice. I absolutely believe that. But sometimes God chooses to heal us in spite of those laws because he wants to open our eyes to the mighty power of God and will not share his glory with anything else. He wants there to be no question in our minds that our deliverance came from him! Friends, I never felt like I was supposed to pray for healing for myself because I just assumed it was God’s will for me to suffer. God allowed me to go through a season of suffering, about which I wrote in this post from last spring, because I kept turning to food and the wisdom of others to save me. In this season of my life, God is teaching me that I must trust him with every aspect of my life and the lives of my children, and seek HIS wisdom first, no matter how crazy it sounds.
So that morning, through tears of surrender, I made cinnamon rolls. I stopped worrying about whether or not what we ate was healthy – although we eat very healthy anyway – and focused on giving thanks to God. We began the habit of reading passages of scripture after dinner, then sharing something for which we’re thankful – a habit we’ve kept up since the holidays and hope will become a permanent routine. After we’ve shared, we each enjoy a piece of really good chocolate. Because God is good. He is worthy to be praised and makes all things for our enjoyment.
In the 4 weeks since our “celebration regiment” began, we’ve noticed a huge change in my son’s intestinal issues. His terrible symptoms are gone, he is healing, and we give God ALL THE GLORY! When we face our most difficult challenges and say, “No matter what, God is good and I will delight in his provision for me,” we don’t just get victory over the enemy and fear. We triumph and get the spoils!
You might think that this is a “how to” post on healing, or assume I’m implying that God wants to heal everyone supernaturally (which I’m NOT), and perhaps the reason why I have not felt God’s permission to blog throughout all this is that I might have been tempted to end this post right here. However, I hope that as you’ve been reading, the question that’s come to your mind is, “How could she know that God wanted to heal them that way?” Because while healing is part of my story and now my son’s, God’s purpose in healing was to teach me this message I share with you today: We need discernment from the Holy Spirit in ALL areas of our life – physical, spiritual, emotional, relational, mental, habitual – and it will only come through a relationship with Jesus Christ. He is our healer and deliverer, and only he knows from what we need to be set free. If we look to any wisdom of this world to save us, it will only take us captive. No book or blog – including this one – will show you and me the path to a victorious life. We must be led along it daily by the gentle hand of Jesus. Freedom from fear is the victory; healing is just one of the spoils.
So how do we develop spiritual discernment? How do we know if and when God wants to heal us or set us free from some sort of bondage? First, we do not seek a healing; we seek the Healer. A relationship with Jesus Christ is the beginning and end of our spiritual journey. If you have not asked Jesus into your heart by believing that he is the Son of God who died for your sins, was raised from the dead in order to conquer sin and death for all who would believe in him, and sits at the right hand of God interceding on behalf of those who love him, then that is the first step. When you have invited Jesus to be Lord of your life, then he gives you the gift of the Holy Spirit, who enables you to have the mind of Christ in your circumstances. (If you would like to do this today, please leave a comment so I can pray with you, although you don’t need me to pray in order to receive Christ into your heart. You need only to confess your sins to him and ask him to be Lord of your life.)
How do you know if you have the mind of Christ as you’re considering the choices before you? To properly discern the Holy Spirit’s voice from your own or other influences, you must:
- Learn to distinguish God’s voice by reading the Bible, God’s revelation of his love for humanity and desire for relationship with us. God will not direct you in ways that are contrary to his Word. That’s why each time I’ve prayed for direction, I’ve specifically asked God to back it up in the Bible before I act on it. The beautiful thing about reading the Bible daily is that God almost always has the confirmation of his word to me right there in that day’s selection. I didn’t seek it out; he had it waiting for me on his appointed day. Don’t let the enemy discourage you if you struggle with doing this on a daily basis at first. We don’t read the Bible to impress God with our devotion; we read it to connect with him. When you miss a day, don’t stress about it. Ask God to give you a desire for his Word, and pick it up the next day!
- Listen to Bible-teaching, Spirit-filled preachers and teachers, and belong to a community of believers. Pray for God to reveal himself to you through his Word and godly teachers. I receive direction from the Holy Spirit as God’s Spirit within me rises up with a resounding “YES!” every time I read the scriptures or hear a message from someone through whom God wants to speak to me. When all messages line up – even if it doesn’t make logical sense – obey.
- Obedience is key to spiritual discernment. If you don’t obey when you know what God wants you to do, you will eventually cease to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit until some disaster strikes and you come seeking him. If you draw near to God, he promises to draw near to you (James 4:8). Obedience often begins with simply praying in agreement with whatever you’re reading in God’s Word. Pray, “Yes, Lord. Thank you for this truth I’m reading. Show me how to live it in my daily life.”
- Finally, discernment is something for which we should earnestly pray and seek. Our lives on earth matter. There are eternal consequences to our actions. God healed my son and has been prospering him in public high school (after being homeschooled for the past 6 1/2 years) in order to pry my white-knuckled hands off of him, and show both of us that Jesus is his Savior – not me. He set me free from intestinal issues so that I would stop preaching that the gluten-free or grain-free diet saves, and instead speak the truth that Jesus saves. He alone is the Way, the Truth, and the Life!
Christ Jesus came to set us free from bondage. Sometimes that bondage is physical, and sometimes it’s spiritual. He loved us, while we were still sinners, and died to set us free. If the Son has set you free, then you are free indeed! Praise God and give him glory!